Thursday, November 08, 2007
shifting my blog to :
http://ultimatexuberance.wordpress.com/
please comment and relink... thks guys :D
<3
never let you go.
- 9:44 PM
o's are finally over.
which means, NO TOUCHING OF BOOKS.
its a taboo to me now... :x
nahs...
sometimes i just feel like doing some math...
cos its fun?
oh gosh.
a 100percent nerd.
during the o's periods.
my socks are damn high.
no more flippers for me...
looking like a nerd is way classier than looking like a promiscuous ahlian...
:D
duirng this SHORT break.
am gonna accomplish some unfinished business.
am gonna help my mother do more housework...
am gonna shop til crazy.
am gonna spend more time with my bf (provided he is willing to)
am gonna spend more time w my dearest bestie, sisters, and grp of 5...
hopefully im able to meet them up a day or two...
cos they have thier own life, own friends to spend with,
sometimes i just feel quite sad.
though i convinced myself to act like a coldblooded girl who is immune to such stuffs.
rather downcasted these days.
i dunno wad's happening to me.
after crying for a night, waking up the next morning with swollen eyes will make me feel better... :)
got a feeling as if im gonna lose you guys anytime. :D
my feelings for you seem to be irrevocable though we're far away.
and im happy that i know i'll love you as much as the first time we got together.
i love you
yours truly,
xuans.
never let you go.
- 6:24 PM
Sunday, October 28, 2007
D':
so sad and depressed because of something; in the midst of my dearie O LEVELS. :(
but aint gonna affect my motivation to work harder...
never let you go.
- 1:58 AM
Sunday, September 23, 2007
im sry for the attitude i gave these days.
somehow i feel that im not as important to u as the days pass.
:'(((
from wad i see,
maybe u can trt other girls better :D/DDDDD':
you can say im jealous or wad... if i tell u, you'll only say sry... but hey, sry is no use when u just say it to appease me...
say sry also nv change.
iloveallofmyfriends :D
and of cos, i love you too :(
never let you go.
- 6:53 PM
Saturday, September 22, 2007
prelim results are disastrous!
shan't elaborate further.
just to summarize on certain things.
overall. i find such things LAME. _l T.T L
if one wants to be a GENUINE gangster or whatever settle what troubles,
go overseas.
sg is scarce of land for such things.
ain't pin-pointing.
but just because i heard a lot about such things.
it really wanna make me LMAO ><
hooligans nowadays sounds so CUTE""". inverted commas :):)
never let you go.
- 1:05 AM
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
prelims are finally over.
but though its over, but O LEVEL hasn't.
had science paper 1 and art paper...
science p1 was erm... i cant really do much. cos i wasnt concentrating due to the fatigue im suffering from.
art paper too, was not smooth sailing.
but at least i know i tried my best to do everything needed...
therefore my conscious is clear. :D
after art paper, me, shenn, adoncia, joanne, ah lee, peiying went 18 chefs to have our lunch.
i was famished and thirsty. my dear boy came to find me, ivan oso came along :D
we slacked awhile, have fun.
a lil celebration after the tough "intensive" effort that we put in for ART @##%$^&^@#!$%
WHICH IS TIME CONSUMING
i hate to admit.
BUT THIS SUBJECT SUX.
nevertheless the painting process was fun.
while the mounting boards were tedious.
but after you've passed up all the work.
you'll feel proud about ur accomplishment.
a few hrs outside after this tedious process wont hurt. :x
have loads of fun chatting, gossiping abt pervertic stuffs, or some bitches and stuffs.
:D:D
then ahlee, joanne, and peiying left.
we sat down pasting the stickers on out hp that we COUP" from popular :XXXX
a sin i've committed today :X
then some lame girl... oh well. dun tok about it.
disgust me :\
sat at the vacant stall beside each a cup, me, adoncia n shenn chatted like nobody's business.
so much to say.
so long since we sit down and really tok.
hahas.
so many ghost stories to share :x
I'LL WORK HARDER.
because i know my prelim results will disappoint my parents.
adam khoo wouldnt help, but i must try to help myself.
right shenn?
rmb the promise ar!
never let you go.
- 8:49 PM
din know why there was a sudden exhilaration when i heard about the news.
i shouldnt be feeling this way... :\
tsk.
perhaps i havent changed.
well.
iloveyou.
din know why, human relations changes so fast.
at first it started out to be vvvvvvv close.
like soul sisters.
gradually, things changed.
friendship fell far apart...
like just hi bye friends.
resentment results.
who to blame?
me, and myself.
sometimes i wonder if i'll still keep in touch with.... when i graduate...
or i even wonder if frenships last?
aw... :(((
never let you go.
- 1:09 AM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
im sad.
i hate life
everybd makes me cry... :'(
never let you go.
- 12:57 AM
Monday, September 03, 2007
happy bday to my hao peng you, KOHKAHBENG :D
well...
its quite late now... according to my "bedtime" TIME.
apparently.
i cant get some slp.
feeling rather crestfallen.
and of cos.
im troubled.
the main reason...
i shant say.
anyway. ppl who know me well enough knew what or who was the main reason.
:'(
these days... i feel rather apart from you.
there's a time.
when we hung up...
i din know why.
i just teared.
sobbed n sobbed.
searched for my phone book.
i came to realised that i have no one to relate to whenever im sad.
i decided to put on a brave voice.
and rang bestie up.
and told her to call back,
when she called back.
i took a long time to ans it.
cos i cleared my throat and stressed myself to stop my endless sobbing.
and of cos... gossipping with her helps me forget my troubles.
i woke up the next day with ruddy hell swollen eyes.
fortunately, it wasnt a sch day.
:D
thk god.!
i just wanna make a comment...
im a useless girlfriend of yours.
is anyone AFRAID of ringing up your boyfriend or even texting him just a simple msg to see if he's doing fine?
i din know why...
whnever i want to...
i hesitate a while...
sometimes i just save the msges in my drafts...
and at times when i picked up the courage to send...
my heart pumped so rapidly...
why is this occuring to me...
i find it pointless to feel this way...
HA!
wad a joke, many ppl may say.
a girlfriend afraid of contacting her boyfriend.
wad a coward!
many times when i waited for ur call.
i feel really really unhappy n upset...
esp when the time is really late.
cos i know that you've forgotten about calling me.
as usual...
you guys know what i'll do...
when i knew you forgotten about calling me...
it makes me even more sad...
but its ok to me...
im immune to such feelings... :D
sometimes SRY is only a empty word.
its longer a magic word to me...
whenever im upset over someting...
you'll always repeat... sry...
im not telling you to blame yourself whatsoever...
but just want you to know n understnd n realise this n this upsets me...
its tiring right?
sry...
that y im not a good gf...
at certain circumstances...
i feel rather neglected.
things btwn us aint the same anymore...
ppl dun see it...
mayb u dun...
but i can...
cos im the sensitive one...
whenevr you knock off from work...
you used to text or call me...
that happens back in those better days...
now...
it doesnt happen anymore...
ignore my rants.
im insane.
oh ya.
daddy bought me a camera.
a slim n sleek cam.
its 6.3
finepix z5!
yay!
and its PINK!
that cheers me up a tiny eeny weeny lil.
you're the only one who can cheer me up...
:'(
maybe calling me is a boring TASK or tedious task to do.
i wont haunt you to clal me anymore...
i was born to tell you that i love you.
never let you go.
- 12:16 AM
